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nemo
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 Posted: Sat Feb 04, 2006 4:38 pm Post subject: Awareness has I Am |
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Pondering where/why the sense of volition and choice come from, if there is no separate individual here to choose or act. If there is no "me" to choose or act, why is there still a sense of choosing?
The thought that occurred is that awareness itself (or consciousness?) carries with it the sense “ I Am”. That a fundamental aspect of awareness is the sense I am.
So, when awareness appears or manifests as action, then there is a sense of I Am Doing.
When seeing happens there is the sense I am Seeing.
Knowing: I am Knowing
This does not mean there is someone here doing, seeing , knowing, yet all seem to arise and occur, and with it the sense I Am
So, perhaps I Am ness is a quality to/of maniifestation and existence
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sara
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| Posted: Sat Feb 04, 2006 6:23 pm Post subject: |
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| nemo wrote: | So, there is only experiences (italics mine), unlinked and unmeaning
The experience is aware
There is awareness AS the experience |
O.k., these words make no 'sense' here, but, perhaps for that very 'reason', they seem to be hitting me over the head 'like a ton a bricks' and 'thoughts' shut down and THAT that is likes it, in fact it gets giddily euphoric every time it is seen!    And it's also so natural and obvious, 'cause that 'experience' stuff seems that way here, too.
But it's still crazily fluid, swishing in and out, back and forth like my washing machine, making me dizzy and upsetting my stomache!
Experiencing is just happening. It's very sensual and it's changing all the time, every minute of the day AND night. This is not exactly new and definitely not scary, but it's (always) different! And it's excellent! Go figure! 
| nemo wrote: | I would say there is only an experience, and a story called leo (or sara, or nemo). Currently there is a reluctance to use "I" or to say "i am ....anything (or nothing)"
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| nemo wrote: | Pondering where/why the sense of volition and choice come from, if there is no separate individual here to choose or act. If there is no "me" to choose or act, why is there still a sense of choosing?
The thought that occurred is that awareness itself (or consciousness?) carries with it the sense “ I Am”. That a fundamental aspect of awareness is the sense I am.
So, when awareness appears or manifests as action, then there is a sense of I Am Doing.
When seeing happens there is the sense I am Seeing.
Knowing: I am Knowing
This does not mean there is someone here doing, seeing , knowing, yet all seem to arise and occur, and with it the sense I Am
So, perhaps I Am ness is a quality to/of maniifestation and existence |
See how everything seems to keep changing?
So now, the sense "I am" = "awareness as the experience" or just "experiencing"? Not really asking as much as just .....experiencing .....Oh, great  It's freezing cold out and I gotta go walk on the beach again!
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nemo
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| Posted: Sat Feb 04, 2006 7:06 pm Post subject: |
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Hi Ms. Sara,
Well , I think that the words making no sense yet having big impact is a good sign
If a pointer is able to shut down the mind, just make the bearings seize this is a goodness, IMHO.
As for the contradiction, there is still no "I" in the sense of a single being. There si still just the experience.
The "awareness as I" seems to address the sense of I ness or identity.
And, even reading what was just written I have no idea what I am talking about - the words make no sense. Agreed. At some point the meaning just seems to drain away and all are left are squiggles. Perhaps the squiggles mean something to someone, or acts as powerful pointer for others. Or a whetstone to sharpen against for others.
Or meaningless gibberish for others.
It was just a thought or insight or realization that came this morning that seemed a good pointer, seemed to fit.
There is no claim to being right or true or real or consistent.
Trying to talk about this stuff is like trying to fit an elephant into a mouse suit. I won't go so far as to say a "useless" exercise, though I get that aspect.
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sara
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| Posted: Sat Feb 04, 2006 8:18 pm Post subject: |
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Nothing really matters!
It's enough that these squiggles mean something to THIS. 
AND there is also a very deep resonance here with the "sense 'I am' ness" post.
Funny isn't it how all of this happens, and what sets it off......so simple and casual and with a sense of "why isn't this always seen" It's soooooo "DUH"!!!! And yet ......
Beach is too cold. So maybe exercise, breathing and meditation and/or whatever else presents itself might help with the 'integration'.
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 10:43 am Post subject: |
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| sara wrote: | | Beach is too cold. So maybe exercise, breathing and meditation and/or whatever else presents itself might help with the 'integration'. |
Sorry, my love... nothing doesn't even 'help' with integration... it IS (integrated).
When it comes to integration, every 'thing' (meditation, breathing, going for walks, particpating in forums) is all 'useless'
But you do meet some nice people here.
Love
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 10:55 am Post subject: Re: Awareness has I Am |
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| nemo wrote: | | Pondering where/why the sense of volition and choice come from |
The sense of volition and choice both 'come' from the same place where the pondering comes from... Nowhere... Now-here.
It reminds me of a joke in news letter number 54
A Solution For Everything
A psychiatrist is interviewing a patient, who beliefs he has a solution for everything.
At some point the psychiatrist says to the man "Imagine there is a hungry tiger with you in this room. The door is locked and you can't get out. What would you do?"
The man answers; "I would blast him to kingdom come with a Kalashnikov automatic rifle."
"Aha," says the psychiatrist triumphantly, "I told you that the door was locked, so where would you get that rifle from?"
Without hesitation the man answers;
"Same place you got the tiger."
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And by the way, the new news letteris on line at:
no goawakeningtothedream.com/
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nemo
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 4:52 pm Post subject: |
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yes, leo , of course, that is the non-answer to all questions.
yet pondering arose and led to the observation of identity and I ness arising in/as/of awareness
Perhaps it is this identity that has a chair being known as a chair and not an aardvark (or whatever).
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 5:25 pm Post subject: |
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| nemo wrote: |
Perhaps it is this identity that has a chair being known as a chair and not an aardvark (or whatever). |
That explains why my chair moves out of the way every time I try to sit on it. |
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nemo
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 6:03 pm Post subject: |
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Does It? That sounds inconvenient. Maybe a beanbag chair would work better for you. or a series of pillows.
Wait...you live in Amsterdam, right, that explains alot. LOL
I'm just funning with you.
I once postualted that "inanimate" objects move when they think we're not looking. Which explains why drunks and tripsters see moving things - the objects know that thoose reporting the movement won't being taken seriously.
And, on another level, why would a chair mind being sat upon? Part of its identity, its "purpose" is that of being sat upon. That being said, I *have* heard a few groan as a huge friend sat down on it.
I know I'm violating all kinds of ND rules here and the ND police will call for my immediate arrest and seizure, forfiture of all non-property not owned by no-one, in no-time flat, but for the rest I trust we can play with and translate appropriately.
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sara
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 6:35 pm Post subject: |
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aehhhmmm....deja vu all over again :
fox wrote:
"however...
there is something that is actually NOT part of the dream!!"
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sara gasped:
"Huh?"
"Oh, dear fox! DO tell!", she begged.
"...there is something that is actually NOT part of the dream!!..."
and fox replied:
"aehhmm, it is still a secret...! "
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sara
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 6:48 pm Post subject: |
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Here's a movie we can see:
Taglines for
"Déjà Vu":
"Your life seems perfect...
Your future is set...
Then you meet the love of your life."
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sara
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 7:35 pm Post subject: |
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Why you clever little fox! 
You've got 'me' blushing! 
But, hey.....that's 'my role' on this 'dek! 
So......you gonna tell me the secrets?
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| Posted: Sun Feb 05, 2006 7:54 pm Post subject: |
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| nemo wrote: |
I'm just funning with you. |
I was just getting ready for a serious non dual response... and now you tell me that you are just funning?
Oh well, as G.K. Chesterton said;
"The angels fly because they take them selves lightly".
PS
The chair just tried to bite me.
Sara. 'No-Thing' matters and that is All that matters.
Fox knows this. |
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