Awakening to the Dream

The Gift of Lucid Living

Welcome The world is unreal Inner Strength Be the way you are Where is Shiva not? I am not this person What is real Talks with Bob Adamson Clarity talks with Nathan Gill An ancient story Certificate of Awakening The Mysterious Stranger Extracts from Tony Parsons Seeds for the Soul The Drama of it All Clarity talks with Nathan Gill The Self-Perfected State Amazing Grace The cage of self-centeredness Original mind You Are That All There Is The existence of consciousness A myriad bubbles Beyond the grasp Selling water by the river Awake In The Heartland What is wrong with Right Now? This First Instant Peace of Being Talks with Ramana Maharshi All That Jazz About Silence It is all The background Seeing it Simply The Dream of Space and Time Discovering Already Awake Reincarnation? IN MEMORIAM Basic Questions Integration Simplicity One Essence Thought The Central Teaching Unity Knowledge and Ignorance Inexpressible Door of Nonduality The real "I" Presence/Awareness Awakening to the Natural State Looking for God Life As It Is There is only Source appearing Yearning for otherness Dharmakaya The ever-present nature Getting rid of the ego To Hell with it All! You Are the Self The Search is the Trap The Obvious Are you awakened? The Supreme Self Naturally Timeless Awareness The Absolute Seekers of Enlightenment Presence of Awareness I am... This Amazing Realization I am Life itself Awareness is the Source The Golden Eternity Simple Beingness The Boundless Void Self-enquiry Who pays the bill? Changeless Reality The Precious Treasury Transparent Radiance You Are the Buddha Beyond Good and Evil The real does not die Memory Seeking I Am The Nature of Thinking The Great Way Beyond na?ve affirmation Ping-ting T'ung-tzu Free will versus determinism The End Of Seeking? A Sharing of Timeless Being Present and Obvious Blinded by the Light Hooked on Enlightenment It's marvelous All the world's diversity There is no oblivion Direct insight Remembering and forgetting Letting go Beingness That which appears Manifestation of the Absolute Nothing Being Everything Consciousness This Radiance Benedictory Verse to the Self
ATTD News Letter number 10
Saturday, July 19, 2003

Q & A

If or when you have a question you'd like to see answered in this newsletter mail to: Question: Hello-thank you for the book. I have a question that continues to bother me about advaita. How do we know that what we refer to as awareness is not a function of this brain?

Although advaita says that all arises within awareness, isn't it also true that this awareness that I am will disappear at my death?

Please help with any suggestions. It just seems clear to me that without this brain there would be no awareness for this body/mind I refer to as me.

Answer: As to the 'how' of your question I have no real answer. I also don't know how the heart beats, how the cells divide and renew and how the metabolism works. I know we can describe these processes to a certain extent, but that seems to be more about what is happening, rather then how it is happening. How there can exist anything at all, especially consciousness, is (literally) mind blowing.

You mix two things together; that what I point to as 'Pure Awareness' and 'personal awareness.' The term Pure Awareness is, as said throughout the book, a conceptual pointer to the'Livingness' that allows me to do the pointing. What you call 'the awareness that I am' (and that might or might not disappear at the moment of death- see the former news letter about NDE's) is how this Animating Energy expresses via the brain. The primal thought is 'I Am.' This is after you have acquired the words to think this, but before that thought can arise, you are. This 'Primal You' is not the personal character that identifies himself as a body mind organism. It is the energy that 'powers' this whole manifestation.

Compare this Animating Energy to electricity. It expresses as light via a light bulb. The light bulb may consider his wiring as that which supplies the light. When the bulb hears about this undying electricity, it may say, "yes but when this wiring inside me finally gives out, the light disappears and that will be the end of me." If this lamp would see that the light orriginates in the electricity and not in his wiring, he would recognize this as his true nature, That what enlivens him and is not affected by the end of the lamp.

All I can suggest is to find out how real this 'me' is that might die. The certainty that you are not the body has to come and burn away the doubts. Find and recognize the electricity that 'lights up' your wiring. This recognition can not be given to you as it takes the 'you' you think you are away. See if this 'you' that supposedly does the thinking can be found apart from thought itself. See if there really is a you that does the thinking and the living. If it cannot be found, then who is going to die?

As long as you believe yourself to be limmited to the body mind organism, instead of the Animating Energy, you will be like the lamp and you will sell yourself short.


An ancient story for kids of all ages by Alan Watts. There was never a time when the world began, because it goes round and round like a circle, and there is no place on a circle where it begins. Look at my watch, which tells the time; it goes round, and so the world repeats itself again and again. But just as the hour-hand of the watch goes up to twelve and down to six, so, too, there is day and night, waking and sleeping, living and dying, summer and winter. You can't have one of these without the other, because you wouldn't be able to know what black is unless you had seen it side-by-side with white, or white unless side-by-side with black.

In the same way, there are times when the world is and when it isn't, for if the world went on and on without rest for ever and ever, it would get horribly tired of itself, it always comes back after it disappears. It's like your breath: it goes in and out, in and out, and if you try to hold it in all the time you feel terrible. It's also like the game of hide-and-seek, because it's always fun to find new ways of hiding, and to seek for someone who doesn't always hide in the same place.

God also likes to play hide-and-seek, but because there is nothing outside God, he has no one but himself to play with. But he gets over this difficulty by pretending that he is not himself. He pretends that he is you and I and all the people in the world, all the animals, all the plants, all the rocks, and all the stars. In this way he has strange and wonderful adventures, some of which are terrible and frightening. But these are just like bad dreams, for when he wakes up they will disappear.

Now when God plays hide-and-seek and pretends that he is you and I, he does it so well that it takes him a long time to remember where and how he hid himself. But that's the whole fun of it- just what he wanted to do. He doesn't want to find himself too quickly, for that would spoil the game. That is why it is so difficult for you and me to find out that we are God in disguise, pretending not to be himself. But when the game had gone on long enough, all of us will wake up, stop pretending, and remember that we are all one single Self-the God who is all that there is and who lives for ever and ever.

Of course, you must remember that God is not shaped like a person. People have skins and there is always something outside our skin. If there weren't, we wouldn't know the difference between what is inside and outside our bodies. But God has no skin and no shape because there isn't any outside to him. [With a sufficiently intelligent child, I illustrate this with a Mobius strip-a ring of paper tape twisted once in such way that it has only one side and one edge] The inside and the outside of God are the same. And though I have been talking about God as 'he' and not 'she,' God isn't a man or a woman. I didn't say 'it' because we usually say 'it' for things that are not alive.

God is the Self of the world, but you can't see God for the same reason that, without a mirror, you can't see your own eyes, and you certainly can't bite your own teeth or look inside your head. Your self is that cleverly hidden, because it is God hiding.

You may ask why God sometimes hides in the form of horrible people, or pretends to be people who suffer great disease and pain. Remember first, that he isn't really doing this to anyone but himself. Remember, too, that in almost all the stories you enjoy there have to be bad people as well as good people, for the thrill of the tale is to find out how the good people will get the better of the bad.

It's the same as when we play cards. At the beginning of the game we shuffle them all into a mess, which is like the bad things in the world, but the point of the game is to put the mess into good order, and the one who does it best is the winner. Then we shuffle the cards once more and play again, and so it goes with the world.

From; THE BOOK (On the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are) by Alan Watts.
Vintage Books. A Division of Random House, Inc. New York ISBN 0-679-72300-5 (pbk.)


From the book 'Awakening to the Dream.' In comparing this animating force to electricity and likening body-mind organisms to appliances, we get an interesting analogy. This story also contains a pointer as to what happens when the body dies.

Electricity has always existed as potential energy, but to manifest, electricity needs a medium, be it a thunderstorm or a steam iron. There are countless electric appliances doing different things; from mixing fruit to making phone calls, from navigating space shuttles to playing movies, from setting off explosives to monitoring vital signs in intensive care units around the world. Notwithstanding this wide variety of activities, all these appliances are powered (enlivened, if you will) by the same energy. When a fruit mixer breaks down, nothing happens to the electricity. That which animated the now broken machine is itself unbroken.

The impersonal energy animating the human apparatus also generates the thoughts with which this apparatus thinks of itself as the responsible source of its activity. In other words, this sense of "me" as a person with volition and responsibility is, in fact, an activity of this impersonal animating energy. The paperback is available at:
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Awakened Poetry

In all ten directions of the universe,

there is only one truth.
When we see clearly, the great teachings are the same.
What can ever be lost? What can be attained?
If we attain something, it was there from the beginning of time.
If we lose something, it is hiding somewhere near us.
Look: this ball in my pocket:
can you see how priceless it is?

Ryokan, from "The Enlightened Heart: An Anthology of Sacred Poetry", edited by Stephen Mitchell

Ryokan (1758 - 1831), Japanese Zen Master, hermit, calligrapher, and poet; his name means "Goodly Tolerance." Another Buddhist name that he took for himself means "Great Fool." Ryokan is one of the most beloved figures in Japanese literature, and is especially known for his kindness and his love of children and animals; he even used to take the lice out of his robe, sun them on a piece of paper on the veranda, then carefully put them back into his robe. He used to smile continually, and people he visited felt "as if spring had come on a dark winter's day." His most famous haiku was written after a thief had broken into his hut and stolen his few simple possessions:

The thief left it behind:
the moon
at my window.

Thank you for this contribution Mark.

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If you are looking for Liberation,
There is some bad news and some good news.
The bad news is that the person you think you are
will never find Liberation.
The good news is that what You really are
is already awakened.
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